I don't think that beast existed before. Before all our babies died.
This beast only shows itself sometimes. And only when I have no control over it. Like when I drink too much wine. Which I try not to do because I know that the beast might come out.
This beast says nasty things. Sometimes it does nasty things. It doesn't care that it might hurt someone's feelings.
Like I wrote above, I never used to have this beast inside me. And now I wonder if it will ever go away or whether it will stay with me forever.
I just don't know.
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I know all too well the beast you speak of, for I too have a beast of my own that has showed it's ugly face a time or two.
*hugs*
I don't know, Mirne. I hope it will go away. I hope that somehow the horrible, horrible things you've had to go through will ease. I wish I knew,and I wish I could help.
Love to you.
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